"One sees great things from the valley; only small things from the peak." --- Gilbert K. Chesterton
Depression can be debilitating, which may be an understatement for some and yet most people will experience symptoms of depression at some point in their lives. Whether it is events happening to us, and/or something that may have started inside of us, which can sometimes be much worse because we don't have something to point to, processing the feelings is difficult. You may have suffered from low level feelings of sadness for many years or ever so often you have intense periods of sadness. On the other hand this may be the first time and you are uncertain what to do. Additionally, for some a love/hate relationship can develop with the depression. It feels good to some extent to punish yourself and be this miserable.
“In addition to my other numerous acquaintances, I have one more intimate confidant… My depression is the most faithful mistress I have known — no wonder, then, that I return the love." --- Søren Kierkegaard
Wondering if you belong or that you are a burden to others may be consistently in your thoughts. To end your life may have crossed your mind. My job and the purpose of counseling is to give you care and comfort and to help create a sense of hope and future vision, which may seem impossible. It's not. Even if you have tried therapy or medication before, or a combination, and didn't feel like it helped, you may want to give it another shot. While I would change the word "inability" to "challenge" or "difficulty" in the below quote, it resonates with many people.
"Depression is the inability to construct a future." --- Rollo May